I dont know why am i still crying now .
I cant really go & hate him right now .
AndreaJie was not here at my house to cheer me up .
Bigbrother was just behine me sleeping. Mum & Dad's just outside in the living room .
I cant cry out loud .
I was very touched when i saw my tag board's was still having someone being there for me, cheering me up.
Why wont you come & meet me just now ?
I act to be very strong cursing you inforn of my friends.
But, it seems very weak inside my heart.
Everything i did made me think of you in my mind.
Why do people let go so easily. But not me ?
You asked your friends who was with them. & You when you heard my name.
You just gave up coming down here .
I promised myself i'll let you go after this month last . But i dont think i can make it.
Nobody even knows wht's my feelings. It's 4yr&3months anni today with daughter.
I don't wanna her to be real worried for me. Sorry, i know you'll be looking at this post now.
I'd let you disappointed every single time i'd been crying. I promised friends but i broke everything.
7 more days. I hope you'll really change & be back.
You'll should be asking me why is that so hard to let go. Let me tell you .
He'd given me much enough happiness in the past. & those happiness really made me regrett for not treasuring it.
I hate this feelings you gave towards me now, i really hate .
On that day. No matter what. I ran down all the way finding you .
But what you did ? Hurting me inforn of me . I can't cry out . But i forced myself to stop my tears.
What did you get for hurting me ? I can give them to you. I want to let go. Why don't i ?
Why am i still crrying the bag you brought & all those things you did for me in my heart ?
You did too many thing . Serouisly , if you'll be back. Is there those feelings like the past ?
You cried , you throw things , you did everything you can for me.
And i treat you as nothing as in the past .
Now that you played my feelings .
Saying that i played you when it was on 30 OF 11 , 2007.
Who can be there being your witness for it ?
I let you go because of HIM .
And you told him to be with me, not letting me know.
When it's time letting me go. You'll still be with me on my birthday. Buying everything for it.
Celeb.ting with me & co. Why should you do this ? Because you still loving me as deep not trying to let go. But you cant dont let me go. So what you did is to find HER . To replace me in your heart.
I'm really trying to do the same thing as you. But i cant.
I not as strong as you think i am.
But i as weak.
Sorry to let you see me like for everyday . You act to look at me.
But in your heart. You're forcing yourself.
I'm very sorry for everything .
Tags will be replying on post from now. Sorry
Andrea ' Thanks for your listening ear. I'll try my best okay .
Carrie ' Happy anni too.
Pasbye ' You'll know if you look through my posts in the past. :)
Bakaboi ' Thanks for your cheering & being there for me . I appri it much .
Xinhui ' Link you up soon after my post .
