Hi,

was back from green. What was the fool.es thing i did there. I cried alot. I seen him for quite many times today. We has no fate at all i swear. After i long messages of 10 pages to my dear aiqi. My feelings has became more alright . Im real happy to see him so happily passing by me having he's own life nowdays. Dear readers, you'll should knew what for i cried am i right ?? Thank you for your understanding. I knw. No one could really been understanding my feelings all along. But, if it's you wht you'll gonna do ? I regret. I really regretted ALOT. You guys must been thinking im a bitch. Let me share with you wht i did okay. As i said, he has been waiting for me for like almost one year. But, i keep fooling him with all my feelings. I sweear to god. i was hongster last time. with all feelings around. I alrdy knew tht he was waiting for me. I was propersly go & accept people went jio.ing me. Why am i so stupid ? Why do all peoplehas regretting things? Im here to appole to wht i did. I know you saw this sooner or later. But, im still in a very wrong. I dont even diserve a better life with you again. As wat my friends said. You'll be back. But not the old you. Why ? Remember, we had a patch that time. You still keeping her photos with you on your handphone. I saw it with a muted mouth not telling you anything to qullr. But, you still know i saw it. I was angry/jealoused everything. But, what you did was. Make me happy doing stupid faces. begging me to forgive you. & We continue with our happy r/s stay very strong with our feelings. But, you gave up to me in the end. You said that, we're not having any happiness or whatever. WHY DINT I CHERISH YOU ? ANS ME. WHY DINT I? You gave in everything for me to be happy. You even told the person i love to be with me on that time past. I dont really care if you want any revange from you to me. I dont care. I gave you permission to hurt meonce again like what i did. I can only cry. Wht can i do ? I cant stop the tears for rolling own like a water tap. I beg you. Just forgive me one time. i just need nothing now other then that. Crying was really a best thing for me this time round. Why dint i scold or rather tell my brother to revange you for scolding me hurting me so deeply with those hurting words in the messages ? Because i love you . You guys people would say that why am i tht foolish to walk a r/s like this for this age whn im only 13+ ? Like what i said. No one would understand me.